So I've kept true to my determination. I've set myself a calorie limit as I do not like strict diets and think a calorie limit is more reasonable.
i did that BMR and h calculation thing and came up with a 2335 to maintain and 1335 to loose.
Which gives me lots of hope. I mean I can have bad days, but as long as I stay under the 2335 im ok. and If I aim for 1335 i will be good.
Ive lost 1 kilo so far... i think thats also from passing some ... bowel movements.
My Ticker
Friday, September 3, 2010
Tuesday, August 31, 2010
Stupid Goals
Hey,
So heres a stupid goal
Getting down to 85 Kilos before the end of this year....
You know what FUck it ! I Can do it!
I Sell myself short sooo much! I dont believe in myself! I HAVE LOST 30 KILOS! (66lbs)
I can fucking do this.
2 Ltrs of water a day - and fuck it I can drink diet cordial.
1 baby bel cheese
1 meal replacement bar
1 shake
1 small meal (or soup) - with bread if it soup is low in cals
2 serves of fruit.
thats a shit load of food to eat and I will not Sabotage myself! I DESERVE BETTER!
I deserve to look ok in a swim suit. even if it covers everything! I deserve to go fucking horse back riding these holidays!
I can do this! and I can do it before the end of the financial year!
I have to think like a skinny person and break myself out of this stupid - you dont deserve this crap!
I need to slow my way into exercise not go into it full ball! WHAT THE FUCK WAS I THINKING!
I need to... wait I WILL stop letting people put me down, letting myself put me down.
So what if my tits looked better when I was fat... Thats the only thing that looked good! the rest looked fucked up and fat...
If you want to get married Lynette You need to loose this weight! You need to start respecting yourself and start putting your goals and your dreams in action. DOnt let this band go to waste! FUCKING DO IT!
NO BISCUITS
NO CAKE
NO FUCKING AROUND
Easy to say while its night time I think....
But Im going to fucking do it.
Im going to do this shit and stop my sub concious mind second guessing itself!
NO MORE CHEESLES! THEY ARNT THAT GOOD!
So heres a stupid goal
Getting down to 85 Kilos before the end of this year....
You know what FUck it ! I Can do it!
I Sell myself short sooo much! I dont believe in myself! I HAVE LOST 30 KILOS! (66lbs)
I can fucking do this.
2 Ltrs of water a day - and fuck it I can drink diet cordial.
1 baby bel cheese
1 meal replacement bar
1 shake
1 small meal (or soup) - with bread if it soup is low in cals
2 serves of fruit.
thats a shit load of food to eat and I will not Sabotage myself! I DESERVE BETTER!
I deserve to look ok in a swim suit. even if it covers everything! I deserve to go fucking horse back riding these holidays!
I can do this! and I can do it before the end of the financial year!
I have to think like a skinny person and break myself out of this stupid - you dont deserve this crap!
I need to slow my way into exercise not go into it full ball! WHAT THE FUCK WAS I THINKING!
I need to... wait I WILL stop letting people put me down, letting myself put me down.
So what if my tits looked better when I was fat... Thats the only thing that looked good! the rest looked fucked up and fat...
If you want to get married Lynette You need to loose this weight! You need to start respecting yourself and start putting your goals and your dreams in action. DOnt let this band go to waste! FUCKING DO IT!
NO BISCUITS
NO CAKE
NO FUCKING AROUND
Easy to say while its night time I think....
But Im going to fucking do it.
Im going to do this shit and stop my sub concious mind second guessing itself!
NO MORE CHEESLES! THEY ARNT THAT GOOD!
Tuesday, August 10, 2010
Learning
Hey,
so I've been keeping a food journal and recording what I eat but most importantly ive been recording the reasons why I overeat and cheat my band and solutions to the problem. One major one for example is bringing money to work,like cash. It's dangerous! I've got a yummy bakery downstairs and there's a snack bar thing like a vending machine on the other side of the officce,where the water cooler is. So to avoid temptation I don't bring money to work. Problem solved.
The next one is eating at uni.... I've resolved that bringing money to uni is a no no but the vending machines have a swipe thing for the card... So I'm taking a water bottle of diet cordial tonight n we shall see how that goes as I drink water mainly. But I'm at uni pretty late so I don't know if it's the best idea to be having water that late.....
And then there's binging at home. Yesterday there was a birthday cake so I had some and I think the sugar slump made me go on an eating fest. Also I think drinking my 2 ltrs of water each day is loosening my band heaps... So I might go for another fill.... We shall see
but I also need to keep myself away from the fridge.... It's an evil mistress. And sugary treats that do more long term damage than just the initial calories.
So that's what I'm doing. What did I eat, why did I eat it, and how I can avoid the situation again. I'm taking positive action to progress myself. As I'm sick of this slump and I wanna loose 22 kilos by Christmas. Probably not going to happen though.... But I'm going to try rly hard as I want to feel slightly comfortable in a swim suit this summer....
so I've been keeping a food journal and recording what I eat but most importantly ive been recording the reasons why I overeat and cheat my band and solutions to the problem. One major one for example is bringing money to work,like cash. It's dangerous! I've got a yummy bakery downstairs and there's a snack bar thing like a vending machine on the other side of the officce,where the water cooler is. So to avoid temptation I don't bring money to work. Problem solved.
The next one is eating at uni.... I've resolved that bringing money to uni is a no no but the vending machines have a swipe thing for the card... So I'm taking a water bottle of diet cordial tonight n we shall see how that goes as I drink water mainly. But I'm at uni pretty late so I don't know if it's the best idea to be having water that late.....
And then there's binging at home. Yesterday there was a birthday cake so I had some and I think the sugar slump made me go on an eating fest. Also I think drinking my 2 ltrs of water each day is loosening my band heaps... So I might go for another fill.... We shall see
but I also need to keep myself away from the fridge.... It's an evil mistress. And sugary treats that do more long term damage than just the initial calories.
So that's what I'm doing. What did I eat, why did I eat it, and how I can avoid the situation again. I'm taking positive action to progress myself. As I'm sick of this slump and I wanna loose 22 kilos by Christmas. Probably not going to happen though.... But I'm going to try rly hard as I want to feel slightly comfortable in a swim suit this summer....
Wednesday, July 21, 2010
Monday, June 28, 2010
Maybe Getting Sick?
Ive been going to the gym this week... (its only tuesday... So Ive been going the last two days). Its been fricken freezing and I think as a result Im coming down with a cold... The back of my throat hurts...
On the flip side... optifast is going good. The diet fits really well into my life style as I get to eat easy and simple things during the day at work
My daily thing is now: - shake for breakfast, fruit cup for morning tea, bar for lunch, baby bel cheese for afternoon snack and I eat whatever I want for dinner oh and another fruit cup for desert
Im getting my 2 serves of fruit in and acouple of serves of veggies in the evening meal.
Im also drinking a shit load of green/white tea and a shit load of water.
And... not weighing myself till Saturday. Determined not to weigh myself till Saturday!
So just doing a blog at work during my lunch break... Its about to hit tax season (end of financial year is in 2 days) So ima be busy which makes this diet work all the more better for me.
CHow.
On the flip side... optifast is going good. The diet fits really well into my life style as I get to eat easy and simple things during the day at work
My daily thing is now: - shake for breakfast, fruit cup for morning tea, bar for lunch, baby bel cheese for afternoon snack and I eat whatever I want for dinner oh and another fruit cup for desert
Im getting my 2 serves of fruit in and acouple of serves of veggies in the evening meal.
Im also drinking a shit load of green/white tea and a shit load of water.
And... not weighing myself till Saturday. Determined not to weigh myself till Saturday!
So just doing a blog at work during my lunch break... Its about to hit tax season (end of financial year is in 2 days) So ima be busy which makes this diet work all the more better for me.
CHow.
Thursday, June 24, 2010
I'm feeling sexy this morning
This morning, I woke up, and I was feeling sexy.... I showered, dried, went to the bedroom and took my towel off and looked at myself... naked in the mirror...
Maybe I sucked my gut in a little... just a little though... and i turned on sideways and I was like... yeah your looking almost normal lynette... almost sexy... but sexy in your own way kinda thing.
Maybe its the female prime minister who is giving me a "rise of the females" power... I dont know *btw very very very happy about what happened yesterday... sad that KR had to go, he was great but it was in the best interests of the labour party to put Gillard in the top job.*
anyway... so yeah, feeling sexy today, going out tonight... world is looking up for me. *think I just jinxed it*
Maybe I sucked my gut in a little... just a little though... and i turned on sideways and I was like... yeah your looking almost normal lynette... almost sexy... but sexy in your own way kinda thing.
Maybe its the female prime minister who is giving me a "rise of the females" power... I dont know *btw very very very happy about what happened yesterday... sad that KR had to go, he was great but it was in the best interests of the labour party to put Gillard in the top job.*
anyway... so yeah, feeling sexy today, going out tonight... world is looking up for me. *think I just jinxed it*
Wednesday, June 23, 2010
Wow... been a while
Wow bugger its been a while since I have posted... ALOT has been going on in my life...
We bought the house and moved into it *here I am!*
We had a custody battle with my Fiances Son... *And won!... although nobody ever wins in these things... we got her to drop her application and kept the little guy living with us*
and... Im down to 115.0 Kilos...
15 to go! and I am determined to get down to AT LEAST 99kilos by the end of this year! my happy goal would be 90 kilos... then I could go horse riding during the holidays.... oh that would be fun....
Sooo To do this?
Optifast VLCD, transitional phase... not going near the Intensive phase... thats just too hard!
I need to know how many fruit and dairy serves you get per day though... its curious that it doesnt tell you...
Oh... and I cant wear my engagement ring anymore... its too big... its causing me to have skin problems and iritating those skin problems by moving around so much.... So i have it on a white gold chain around my neck... I love talking to people and they are like, "why are you wearing your engagement ring around your neck?" and I tell them straight up: " I've lost 25kilos.. It doesnt fit anymore, and Ive got more to loose so Im not getting it resized"
Going to get the man and myself of the scales on saturday and we are going to do a weightloss challenge! Set a goal and then each week weigh up and measure up and see how we're going.
He's starting to put on a bit of weight, now that Im not able to eat so well... he's eating my leftovers lol
ok well thats my plan... Im going to iron out the details when I find out about this stupid dairy/fruit thing... Im hoping that its 2 serves of fruit, 1 serve of dairy... cause that would be really nice.....
Going shopping with mum this weekend for my belated 21st birthday pressie... my sister bought us a $200 letter box... Yes they can actually cost that much! because our one was hideous... but we would of had to drill another hole in the ground, concerete it and it would of looked weird.... So we took it back, bought a $30 one which looks great! and this weekend, me mums and I will be going shopping for bakewares... I want a food scale that actually works, some little 1cup baking dishes and some cute little things to make it easier to cook yummy food.
I could go on and on about what we have done to the house.... But I shant... Because its not interesting to people lol
seeya around
We bought the house and moved into it *here I am!*
We had a custody battle with my Fiances Son... *And won!... although nobody ever wins in these things... we got her to drop her application and kept the little guy living with us*
and... Im down to 115.0 Kilos...
15 to go! and I am determined to get down to AT LEAST 99kilos by the end of this year! my happy goal would be 90 kilos... then I could go horse riding during the holidays.... oh that would be fun....
Sooo To do this?
Optifast VLCD, transitional phase... not going near the Intensive phase... thats just too hard!
I need to know how many fruit and dairy serves you get per day though... its curious that it doesnt tell you...
Oh... and I cant wear my engagement ring anymore... its too big... its causing me to have skin problems and iritating those skin problems by moving around so much.... So i have it on a white gold chain around my neck... I love talking to people and they are like, "why are you wearing your engagement ring around your neck?" and I tell them straight up: " I've lost 25kilos.. It doesnt fit anymore, and Ive got more to loose so Im not getting it resized"
Going to get the man and myself of the scales on saturday and we are going to do a weightloss challenge! Set a goal and then each week weigh up and measure up and see how we're going.
He's starting to put on a bit of weight, now that Im not able to eat so well... he's eating my leftovers lol
ok well thats my plan... Im going to iron out the details when I find out about this stupid dairy/fruit thing... Im hoping that its 2 serves of fruit, 1 serve of dairy... cause that would be really nice.....
Going shopping with mum this weekend for my belated 21st birthday pressie... my sister bought us a $200 letter box... Yes they can actually cost that much! because our one was hideous... but we would of had to drill another hole in the ground, concerete it and it would of looked weird.... So we took it back, bought a $30 one which looks great! and this weekend, me mums and I will be going shopping for bakewares... I want a food scale that actually works, some little 1cup baking dishes and some cute little things to make it easier to cook yummy food.
I could go on and on about what we have done to the house.... But I shant... Because its not interesting to people lol
seeya around
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